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Could it be?
Well, here I am in the RV, resting from a day of classes. The house is on the market and we’re getting settled in here. The sun has just set and cool air is flowing in through the screen door. I’m lying on the couch, reading a novel, when I begin noticing the sounds of the night. As I absorb my surroundings I sense God’s presence through His creation. In this moment, I feel so close to Him. The sweet sensation of peace and joy come over me and I sink further into the couch and turn back to my book. In that moment I suddenly realize the source of my peacefulness. Is the couch comfortable? No. Is the RV comfortable? No. Do I now have all the conveniences I’m used to? No. Do I know how I’m going to fit everything I own into this small space? No. Did I ever think I would feel such joy so early in this transition? No. But by His grace and mercy, He has given me a heart for Him above my own comfort, above material possessions, above ample space and convenience.
Honestly, I’ve been extremely attached to my easy, American lifestyle and had all intentions of living that way until I was headed overseas. God had other plans. I trust He knows and wants the best for me. The first time I saw this RV I cried and told God I didn’t know how I’d ever be okay with this. I thought it was impossible for me to make this transition without waking to a heavy heart every morning. The last time I walked into the RV before moving in, my heart lept at my new place and all my plans to “Dana-ize” it. Only God could have changed me. Then tonight He blessed me with sensations of His creation that I would have been sheltered from in my comfortable house. He is always turning us back to Him in whatever ways He deems best and never gives us more than He can get us through.
So, I finished my novel and now I’m off to put the heated mattress pad on the bed. I pray you all find contentment, peace, and joy regardless of your circumstances. No matter where you are or what you’re going through, He is there with you! There is nothing greater than that!