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Daily Battles
We have daily battles. Well, at least I do. I probably post about this a lot but it’s a lesson I’m learning over and over.
This morning we went to get our immunizations. Our plan is to volunteer at the church afterwards. That means I have a schedule I’d like to stick to. While we were getting our shots Jonathan mentioned that he has a doctor’s appointment at 10am. Hmmm, first snag to the plan.
As we stopped by the desk after our first appointment, a man was already there so we had to wait, and wait, and wait. He came by the clinic to ask for medical advice… at the front counter… and he asked and asked… and we waited and waited… then he said, ‘let me tell you something funny’. Oh my gosh. So. I went to the ladies room and started praying. At that moment I had a choice – lose my temper or have the patience of Christ. I started repeating to myself, “patience, patience, patience… future glory, future glory, future glory…”. I held back in that moment but the storm still raged inside.
Now I’m battling irritability and impatience in general. I still have a choice and now that I’ve gotten myself all worked up, the temptation to ‘lose it’ is greater. But not greater than He who is in me!! The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak – especially when we begin to feed the fleshly desires. Is it worth getting worked up about? No. Does it feel like it’s worth it? Yes. But there’s my choice… and I read in the Psalms this morning that our lives are but a breath. Why waste it with inner turmoil?
So the challenge is set before me. Guard my heart, ask the Lord to guard my mouth, and let the peace of God guard my mind.
Deep…
breath…