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Who’s Schedule?
It might be time for me to learn this lesson. I’ve heard it, listened to it, but I’ve been living in denial. They say at first the baby runs your life. The reality is, apparently, that my schedule will no longer be my own. Sigh. And I so loved my schedule…
Jonathan and I recently got our calendar out to plan our last few out-of-town trips to visit friends and family, have our baby dedication, and host a “Meet Asher” drop-in. Now all this is really dependent on when he arrives because he is the reason for the visiting – to introduce him to everyone. We have had to come face-to-face with the fact that we are completely out of control. (And since one of us isn’t a control freak it’s not a challenge for both of us. I won’t tell you which is which.) We’re as good at planning the timing of his actual birth as we were at timing the pregnancy itself. And as much as I’d love to plan when we have our second child (Lord willing) I won’t even bother. I know better.
I am tempted to put my calendar up against my belly and explain to Asher the timeline and when he really needs to come out. I want to give him a deadline. I’ve even prayed for my timeline. Surely God will see the reasonableness of it. We’ve made plans! We need to order invitations! But I know better on this one too. I just haven’t lost that shred of hope that somehow I can influence the timing of all this. When my deadline comes and goes, that hope will be gone and I’ll come back to reality with everyone else. Maybe that will help me to transition into a life run by an infant. There’s a lesson and something to gain in everything, right?
In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. ~Proverbs 16:9