Through the Seasons

Now that I think about it

I wrote this whole post on feeling useless but then I thought back on it and remembered going through these cycles when I worked too.  I don’t know if I’m expecting to make some huge impact on the world on a daily basis or what.  My emotions would say that’s what I’m supposed to do.  I know for sure that’s not reality.  I guess it boils down to just hoping you’re here for a purpose and that your life matters.  If we evaluate these things with our own eyes I think we’ll continuously come short – especially in our culture of productivity.  (I find I am happier with my life the more productive I am.  Surely there are better virtues to aspire to!)  But if we see could see things from God’s perspective I bet some of our victories we wouldn’t say were as victorious as we felt and some of our failures probably weren’t as disasterous as we thought.  Our heart is decietful and our emotions lie.  This is when I have to press forward seeking first His kingdom and His righteousness and trusting Him to add “all these things” to me.  Now to remember this the next time I’m wondering if I matter!